October 29th 2014 20:02
Yesterday I lost my cat Rkitty, I had her for almost 17 years. So, today my heart aches. Losing her was so hard and having to put her to sleep, to sign those papers, made it even harder. Even though I knew it was for the best.
Rkitty was sick for a few days, and now that I think about it, her health due to getting older had been going downhill. The fact that she lived so long and was never sick, well, she was happy and healthy. So, I must have done something right.
In the middle of her illness, I was hit with high level migraine pain. I have chronic migraine, the pain level went way up. I am surprised it didn't get worse. I have panic disorder as well. Every day is a battle. I feel guilty because of my panic attacks, just like I do when my migraine pain puts me down.
Stress, grief, emotional times take their toll on chronic conditions, diseases. Take time for yourself. I have allowed myself to cry, to grieve, to feel my heartfelt pain.
When you find yourself in these situations, please take time for yourself, be patient with you. Don't let anyone tell you how to grieve or how long. If you find you do need help, reach out for it. Talk to someone who will understand.