Daily Turmoil & Me
February 5th 2012 20:13
I have not been posting as much as I've wanted to...I am in the midst of turmoil inside. I am going about my daily life as "normal" as I can, but it's taking it's toll.
This time, it is not migraine doing this, although the pain is always there, something else has taken the front seat.
A little over a month ago, I started to have panic attacks, again. It's been a long time since this has happened. I have Hashimot's Thyroiditis. I believe it has to do with this,but I'm not sure. I've made a doctor's appointment later this month.
For someone who has never had panic attacks, I doubt they can even imagine what it's like. I know I wouldn't have been able to before having them myself.
For me, it's waves of emotions. I guess you could compare it to being startled,scared. Can you remember when someone has come up behind you to scare you? It's that feeling, over and over...then my thoughts just get scrambled. Doom,gloom..I start to think of those I've lost in my life, which turns my thoughts about dying, death...
Then there's the physical...burning,numbness in my hands,feet,even my face,my lips. My chest starts to tighten...
I will continue to post. I debated on sharing what I am going through on here. My hope is that by sharing it, it may help someone. Either someone who goes through it, has, or knows someone who has had panic attacks.
I will update after my appointment as to how I am doing. This blog is important to me,I will continue to post.......
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