Groundhog Day Migraine Way
March 9th 2008 03:02
Right now,as I write this my pain level is on the way up. My head not only hurts, but as the pain is rising, my head feels like it's swelling. The pain is like needles and pins all over my head. Tonight, it is like it's sprouting up in rows.
The top of my head throbs, my forehead is starting to feel like shattered glass again. That is how the pain runs. My face is already hurting. The weather has gotten cold. This is most likely what has triggered my pain to go up.
I am so tired. I didn't sleep last night because of the pain. All day today I have not been able to think straight. My brain feels like mush. I don't feel any closer to being able to sleep than last night.
You don't know what to do with yourself. I am so overtired now. I hope for sleep. And if I sleep, I hope I don't have nightmares. I hope I don't cry in my sleep. Sometimes I wake myself up yelling.
This is like groundhog day. It happens over and over. What do you do when the pain is always there? The only thing that changes is the level. You find it hard to communicate sometimes when it gets bad. You find yourself at a loss for words, of words. How to spell, what it was you were writing or saying. I have been at the er and called up to the desk, the lady asked me questions. I could see her lips moving. Suddenly, I couldn't hear her.
I panicked. I looked at my daughter and she knew I couldn't answer, so she did for me. When I went in to be seen, I fainted. It was no big deal to the doctor or nurses. Or what had happened at the desk.
When you actually lose your hearing. When you cannot understan what the other person is saying. When you cannot speak, it is very scary.
As I sit here now, I am scared. I don't know where this pain will lead me tonight.So, this is life.
The top of my head throbs, my forehead is starting to feel like shattered glass again. That is how the pain runs. My face is already hurting. The weather has gotten cold. This is most likely what has triggered my pain to go up.
I am so tired. I didn't sleep last night because of the pain. All day today I have not been able to think straight. My brain feels like mush. I don't feel any closer to being able to sleep than last night.
You don't know what to do with yourself. I am so overtired now. I hope for sleep. And if I sleep, I hope I don't have nightmares. I hope I don't cry in my sleep. Sometimes I wake myself up yelling.
This is like groundhog day. It happens over and over. What do you do when the pain is always there? The only thing that changes is the level. You find it hard to communicate sometimes when it gets bad. You find yourself at a loss for words, of words. How to spell, what it was you were writing or saying. I have been at the er and called up to the desk, the lady asked me questions. I could see her lips moving. Suddenly, I couldn't hear her.
I panicked. I looked at my daughter and she knew I couldn't answer, so she did for me. When I went in to be seen, I fainted. It was no big deal to the doctor or nurses. Or what had happened at the desk.
When you actually lose your hearing. When you cannot understan what the other person is saying. When you cannot speak, it is very scary.
As I sit here now, I am scared. I don't know where this pain will lead me tonight.So, this is life.
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