Hiding your pain behind a mask
October 27th 2008 14:53
Halloween
I made it to the Halloween party my daughter has each year.It was so much fun to watch the kids playing and having fun.I forget what it's like to be out among other people.
The word fun is something not usually in my life.Pain is like a sponge,it sucks the life out of you.It is you.You are the pain.Even though it's been this many years of chronic migraine,people don't get it.
Your spouse or partner may try to understand,but I believe most just get tired of it.As if we choose pain,ask for it.I want a life without pain.I'm not just tired.I want a life.I want to be able to do things,go places.
With the weather now a major trigger for me,there are starting to be more bad days than good.I was just getting my hopes up because the opposite was true for awhile.I was hoping that I'd be able to enjoy the holidays this year.
I hold on to the hope,yet I have so much fear.The pain that I find myself in today is so bad.
The top of my head throbs,sharp shooting pains that start to go down the back of my head.My face throbs.
I feel sick.I am lightheaded.I am so tired,no amount of sleep gives me the rest I need.
I cannot believe in a world full of so many advances that more is not done where migraine is concerned.There are so many people suffering in silence,ashamed to go to a doctor for help because of a "headache". How many times I've gone to the er for help and hear the words from the doctors & nurses "Oh,a headache."
So,today I'll pretend I'm ok.I'll exhaust myself even more by putting on a mask.How fitting for this time of year.
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Comment by jan webb
Depression Grew
Broken Wings
them.They started at 15, years old.I think most people
who have not had one, just don't understand how
miserable life can be. I hope your pain, goes away
so, you don't have to hide from life anymore.