Migraine has it's way today
March 29th 2008 19:25
Today,I am wiped out.I know I've been more active this past 2wks than I have in 3 years.The emotions have been hard to deal with for me.Along with that is the crazy weather.It's high 60's one day,the nights drop down.Then another day it may snow.The rain last night I know hurt me.
So,last night,my facial pain came back.Today it's worse than last night.Many times when I make it through a crisis,the pain hits me later.I hate it.I need my time to mourn.I need my time to just be....I'm grateful I made it and was there with my dad.I really want,need my time for me.It's hard enough to lose your last parent.And of course,mine was a rocky relationship with my dad (all my siblings as well were).I'm tired.Why couldn't migraine just have left me alone a little while longer.
I don't want to be a whiner,but I have the right to have this time.My sister with ms and parkinsons is having a hard time.The difference,people are concerned for her.I called my aunt(my dad's sister) and she was very nice.But her concern was that she was really hoping this wasn't too much on my sister.There should be concern.But people like me who are in chronic pain,we don't get that concern.
I want to be able to cry without risking more pain.I want to be able to emotional without the level of pain going up.Holding it in can't be good either.
I'll tell you,it gets old.It is extremely draining.I'd love to go through photos.There are healing times I need,want and my pain is stopping me.
So,last night,my facial pain came back.Today it's worse than last night.Many times when I make it through a crisis,the pain hits me later.I hate it.I need my time to mourn.I need my time to just be....I'm grateful I made it and was there with my dad.I really want,need my time for me.It's hard enough to lose your last parent.And of course,mine was a rocky relationship with my dad (all my siblings as well were).I'm tired.Why couldn't migraine just have left me alone a little while longer.
I don't want to be a whiner,but I have the right to have this time.My sister with ms and parkinsons is having a hard time.The difference,people are concerned for her.I called my aunt(my dad's sister) and she was very nice.But her concern was that she was really hoping this wasn't too much on my sister.There should be concern.But people like me who are in chronic pain,we don't get that concern.
I want to be able to cry without risking more pain.I want to be able to emotional without the level of pain going up.Holding it in can't be good either.
I'll tell you,it gets old.It is extremely draining.I'd love to go through photos.There are healing times I need,want and my pain is stopping me.
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