Pain Level Down Panic UP
September 7th 2012 23:05
So what's the deal? I don't know...I just want a "normal" life. Or at least to feel normal. I am so tired of the stupid guilt that goes along with the pain and the panic! I don't want to talk about it because unless someone's gone through it, there is no way they can understand it,I know I wouldn't.
First fear starts, it gets worse. So, I try to calm myself. If it's nice out, go outside, breathe, think thoughts of gratitude. Tell myself I'm ok, yeah right, that's like telling my husband he doesn't need his insulin for diabetes,just think his sugar level low!
This triggers thoughts of death...which makes my fear worse. I was never afraid of death, I am not a person who walks around thinking about it, unless the panic attacks hit me.
I'm fed up, I'm tired...and I am riddled with guilt. Between this and migraine,wow,two things people don't understand,most think you're faking, I feel like I'm losing my mind!
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